the most important thing that occurred after the tenth vacation was a complete change in my attitude. for the first time in my life i started to enjoy music(listening of course,listening to mine would give moksha to the listener), i started to speak louder and started to blurt out short nasty non sensical snippets(kathi should be better word) and won curses and appreciation from friends, i started to look at girls, i was unaware of their existence till then. well the board exam results came and was surprised at my marks. i became a little too ambitious. i decided to go for iit coaching. i never knew what iit was. heard about it from here and there. well the school began and my life just moved on. it just moved like a dream not a pleasant one but not a nightmare. i began to b a little philosophical and learned to view life at different angles. i struggled now and then during the coaching periods. i needed strokes from my friends and family to keep me going. nothin made sense the time when i learned it. differentiation integration calculus stoichiometry.....stuff, i dont know what difference it made to my life...i became a little interested in cocurricular activites.. not much..not that successful but still was still an experience. and soon at the speed of thought the eleventh class was over.
now was the most crucial period of my life they said. though i was not serious in my preparations i tried to look serious by shaving my head and keeping silence.well.... shaving my head i still remember it .....
i saw a good baldy in my like the beckham or diesel, i sat b4 the mirror in the barber shop, he asked,"crop adikkatte" i replied,"motta adikkanam". i saw a smile on his face. he used the scissor(a pick axe i shud say) and without any mercy as if my hair were weeds on the paddy , plucked my hair here and there leaving me some hair as craters on the moon.i found it difficult to look at the mirror.he took the razor immersed it in a lotion and started his craft on my hair.soon i was there bald, as clean as an egg(except for a bloodlined scratch in the middle)i put my cap on and went homewards. my family made a zero out of me. a long period it was.goin daily in front of the mirror to see whether my hair has sprouted. i was depressed when it didnt look healthy and it hadnt grown a big deal after one month...
but the gods heard my call and my hair started to grow healthily again. that was me and my hair.
i encountered new problems on the way. i used to get tired a lot. i wud fall asleep quite easily, during classtimes it had never occurred to me before. the lecture would go on. i may start with the application of gauss law, slip to the xmen, the medieval indian history of kakatyas, rashtrakutas, pallavas and to the t20 game and finally my head would have knocked against my table and i would b startled to see the derivation of coulumbs law through gauss law..time went in months. sleep remained a constant.i started blurting out bizzare things during sleep and finally the skool came to a close. the study hols were no different. i was sleeping all the while. i heard that sleep played a very important role in life. without it u could go nuts and fruits. i came to understand the need for what i studied just then. thanks to feynmans lectures and mtg. then the exams came which i totally pissed out.
then came this time.....
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